10 things I learned from Animals

I feel that people can lean a lot from animals around them it has been shown that kids who grow up with pets have better school attendance, higher self esteem and higher cognitive development. As much as we try to separate our selves from the world around us we are doomed to fail. Here are just some of the things I have learned from creatures around me.

1) It doesnt matter what is on the outside it matters what is inside. As cheesy as that is your dog doesnt care whether you have a fucking huge zit plastered in the middle of your nose and look vaguely like you belong in a Christmas special. Your dog will still greet you and love you just the same.

2) There is no such thing as being caged. You are never trapped I have seen some crazy escapes. Monkeys pick locks and birds learn to use the metro because they couldn't fly. There is always a way out no matter how insane.

3) Your mother is always right. I shouldnt even have to explain this one but learned societies have this ability to teach their offspring what to do and what no to do. You can see this in animals just look really im not explaining this.

4) Nothing good ever happens fast. This is the number one rule in aquariums. If you do anything to quickly you are asking for a ecological collapse. Apply this to your life the harder you work, the longer it takes the more it will be worth.

5) Ask, dont tell. If you have ever tried to move a horse or cow or something of that nature you know this one. It will not move period. No matter what you do to try to move you will not move those hundreds of pounds. You have to ask gently and start poking them annoy it into moving really. If you are one of those people who always tells and never asks I beg of you to push a horse you will find yourself smashed nicely against a wall. I will find it pleasing to view.

6) Be humble. You are not on top of the food chain. If you think this i will throw you into a lion cage mkay and number 2 will not apply.

7) Stop trying to find a reason for everything. Humans are the only ones who always try to find a reason for x or y. "why did x happen to me?" stuff like that ever see another creature do that? No.

8) Trust your instincts. There always right. If something feels wrong it is wrong hands down. Dont ever ever second guess your actions or you will spend your whole life wondering if you made a wrong turn and that is wasting life thats also number 9.

9) Dont waste your life. You are a great random act of randomness. I believe that we are just a series of random actions and ideas. Dont waste these following societies plan for you you are unique so be unique. You have one wild and precious life use it.

10) Be happy. Ever see animals mope in the same way humans do we have so much pitty for ourselves. Dont dawdle on the bad things be happy no one is stopping you besides yourself.

Little Lion Man

Weep for yourself, my man,

You'll never be what is in your heart

Weep Little Lion Man,..."

Sometimes I hit this road block where I cant understand myself anymore. Why I say things that get me in trouble, why I cant finish anything I start...

"You're not as brave as you were at the start

Rate yourself and rake yourself,

Take all the courage you have left..."

I wish I could finish something for once in my life or at least keep it, everything I cherish seems to disappear faster then sunshine in seattle...

"Wasted on fixing all the problems

That you made in your own head"

Supposedly the therapists tell me thats its my own doing, that I can change something, but I cant. I am either afraid to do so, or have yet to really motivated too..

"But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my..."

"Tremble for yourself, my man,

You know that you have seen this all before..."

This is when time travel would be useful. So all the things we fuck up can be changed. Just think of all the things we could stop. But then we would never grow...

"Tremble Little Lion Man,

You'll never settle any of your scores..."

Why is it when I really need to express what I feel I cant. Why in that moment when the world pauses for you to change it that you cant. It like its laughing at you daring you to guess what you fucked up this time.

"Your grace is wasted in your face,

Your boldness stands alone among the wreck

Now learn from your mother or else spend your days Biting your own neck"

I want to fix everything wrong in the world I want to make it right... How can I do this when I cant even fix myself. Which makes me wonder why I want to change myself. Which I then answer to is because I just want to feel that happy acceptance of when I was a kind. I know its inside myself. I'm just going in circles with my thought which gives me stress and then acne which isnt helpful either.

"But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my dear?

But it was not your fault but mine

And it was your heart on the line

I really fucked it up this time

Didn't I, my dear?

Didn't I, my dear?"

This song reminds me of one of my fish by the way. Wana know why I love my fish... it is because I envy there happy small existence in the world. The simplicity of their little watery life is magical. Sometimes I wonder if everyone feels this way, call it teenage angst call it boredom. All it is telling me is I really cant wait to get my tablet pen so I can draw again.

Lyrics: Mumford And Sons

Why god invented waterproof eyeliner... among other things

this note is going to be a ramble of all things slightly fishy and deeply metaphorical if you bother to look, feel free to leave anytime.
One of the great things about humans is we have conquered the globe we now reach across the entire surface. Sadly most of it is ocean and of that well lets just say we know more about the surface of the moon then our own oceans. But moving on there is a brilliant hobby out there called aquarium keeping. We as a species love exotic things (animals, art, dancers, etc.) but it is our own backyard that is exotic to another that is worth more then anything else. Some of the best photographers take pictures of there surroundings and what they know shouldn't we be interested into our own backyards. As we have conquered the globe we have lost the exotic factor. There are no more wild lands to discover. This is why we are so enthralled by the idea of Jurassic Park, Indiana Jones, etc. The aquarium gives us a peak into an unknown territory. An idea that we cant go up anymore we might as well go down. And in doing so look into the pools that have collected in our backyards. The fish in the pet store come mainly from Asia and Africa most of the popular species are from those regions as well. They are colorful and brilliant and just plain stupid. I have never seen dumber fish. The more plain a fish looks, the more browns and mushy shades the fish in question tends to be some of the most personable (though this is usually just a rule of thumb). There is a new genre out there called native fish keeping referring to mostly north american species. While there are the boring one there are some brightly colored wonders that fill our (highly polluted *cough cough) streams and lakes. Some of these include sunfish and darters (relatives of perches) and these come in an astounding array of colors. Leaving me to wonder why cant people find the magic anymore in whats in front of them. When did we loose that wow factor that makes life so much more fun. Children find whats in font of them amazing but they loose interest as it just becomes background noise. Sadly we cant see whats right in front of our noses without a mirror. Let the aquarium be the mirror to open your eyes to the lost exotic wonders of what lives right next to us. Oh and god invented waterproof eyeliner so Izi could get her face wet so she can see whats in the river.

I had a dream

I had a dream that I could fly. It was a great dream something we all try to understand, something people wont ever be able to do. And when I learned to fly I understood the air around me and the creatures in it and why they did what they did. I wished that everyone understood the sky like that. Then it makes me wonder what if we all understood the whole world. What if we could really understand its cycles, its moods, and how we fit into the bigger picture of it all. Cause face it we are the world we will never be able to distance ourselves from it. We come from the earth and to it we will return. As much as we try to overcome it, control it and modernize it; face it the world controls us. When we learn to become a part of something larger we learn about ourselves and better the world one more step. But like all good dreams you eventually wake up from them.

Stupid universe

Now once again I buried my nose in a book for all hours of day light and have come to the conclusion that the universe hates me. Ever read the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy? Well it puts a very depressing tone on life. With all the shampoo commercials and health care and what-not you think someone would have found a reason for my blatantly useless existence. Type into google calculator the answer to life, the universe, and everything it gives you 42 why thank you deep thought brain child of Douglas Adams. Lovely book if you ignore the fact were descended from middle men rejected from their home planet. I blame the universe for causing Douglas Adams to write such an insanely interesting yet annoying book. I like to think of the universe as a older brother that you never see yet shows up every few months awkwardly at a family reunion reminding you of his existence. He might even give you a gift if his going no where career gave him a raise. I then have to question my own tiny, worthless existence means anything in the long run. And all I can do is come to the sad but simple conclusion that yes it is worthless and completely and utterly a waste of chemicals squished together against their own free will. But don't panic (ha ha that was a joke... at least I thought it was funny) religion solves that problem right? The universe was kind enough to allow us to evolve so that we could use religion to keep us from all going suicidal and wiping out the human race. I wonder if animals have a religion or their to stupid to realize that the universe is so incredibly immensely vast. i mean vast like wow. If I had that much space think how many shoes I could by or suns I could explode. What a waste of time you think that the universe would decided to waste its time somewhere else besides coming up into Douglas Adams mind and going hey Izi guess what your life = 42. That's just plain rude not to mention useless, which sums up my existence. Stupid universe go mess with your own existence.