I See Stars

I hear how stars are always there in the day when we cant see them, in the city when we pollute the sky with light. But I still cannot get over them when I leave the city and the inhabited areas, the way they dust the sky leaving few black places. They make me feel small and funny making me feel as if I am floating, walking on air, in space forgetting that there are other people for getting my decisions mean something in the long run. A good argument that decisions make a big difference in the future. It never changes things in the long run the universe will never notice such a small ripple but each little decision you make in your life leads to bigger consequences when does it stop. When does the large difference fade away to nothing when can i be brave enough to learn about these things. I smelled my mom yesterday, little things that bring me back to a reality that I will never have again, a dream, a forgotten place in figmentitive time, places with stars.